Five days of stomach pain, with no sign of it letting up. (Blah.) To make matters worse, I’ve been sitting in front of my keyboard for the past hour trying to think up something brilliant and/or inspiring for my 28th day of blogging.
Truthfully? I’ve got nothing! Not really. I think I’m pretty worn out from feeling so ill for the past too many days.
So, media fasts. I shared a couple of weeks ago that I chose to fast from media.
I wasn’t quite sure how long the fast would last. Initially, it was just for 7 days. But, I enjoyed the quiet so much, I kept going.
Over the weekend I decided to break my fast. Watching a movie or two can be a good distraction. Especially when I’m hanging out with my oldest and counting every moment precious. (Oh, College!!! Why must you coming so SOON?!?)
By Sunday evening, though, I had watched more media than I had in the past couple of weeks and I was burnt-out.
I’m not sure if my brain hurt more from the migraine or from catching up on my favorite shows. Probably the combo.
One of the things I noticed was that not only did I not get much back from the media I watched (aside from my movie with Chels,) but I also noticed how much media took from me.
I felt empty. I felt ‘blah.’ And, I was on complete sensory overload.
I wanted to spend time studying my Bible this weekend, but ‘just didn’t feel like it.’ So, instead, I watched another show. And then I felt worse. (Am I the only one who’s done this?)
I’ve done extended media fasts before. The longest was a few years back and lasted around 9 months. (How in the world did I do that?!?) I’m not sure I’m going to do that right now. (Grin.)
But, what I have decided is to be very careful with which movies/shows I do watch. I’m also going to be careful with how much I watch in one sitting/day. Moderation, eh?
We limit our kids to 90 minutes a day of screen time per day. Sadly, on a typical night, I could easily spend 2-3 times that amount. (Blush.)
I’m currently reading Jen Hatmaker’s book on Bible study and am really feeling inspired to dig in deep. I’ve always read my Bible, but my focused study has been off and on-again over the years.
I’m ready to get serious, recommit, and dig deep. I’m seriously so excited. I’m ready to take my relationship with God to a deeper level. To learn more about His Word, press into more focused prayer, and allow Him to transform my heart and life.
When we take on something new, something old has to be laid aside. The past couple of weeks have shown me media is most definitely something I want to limit in order to make room for more quiet. And, more importantly, to make more space for God.
It seems kind of silly to even need to make that decision, I know. But, y’all. Seriously, those Netflix series have some serious binge-inducing-powers (Gilmore Girls, I’m looking at you!)
So, yeah. Not a whole lot of inspiration or brilliance on Day 28. My apologies. (Wink.)
But, on a positive note, I’m making progress. And, I’m so very thankful for the journey God has me on. And, His incredible patience with me as I figure all this out!
So, Friends, the sound of crickets has been deafening. If you have any great Bible study tools, apps, or advice, I would love to have you share them with me. Feel free to add a comment or send a quick email my way. (Smile.)
Photo Credit: Amy Jo Ivey / “Pioneer Square” /Seattle, Washington / April 21, 2015